I spent the whole afternoon at home, looking at the clouds, in the position that Marvin discovered last week. It was a nice view. I was thinking thinking thinking...
Seriously, holiday is scary. I will be more happy and will be more sad easily. I hate the feeling of staying alone at home. I was anticipating to go out and hang around with all my friends. I miss everyone very much. Now tomorrow I am going out for appointment alone. I am scare, somehow I just don't feel independent, secure and strong enough. In fact, I am having panic attack again, I am shivering, having stomachache and sweating all over my body.
Sounds turned off to you maybe? You know, I realised if I am a coward in a lot of ways. I am not trying to be negative but I am seeing it from another person's perspective. What I need now is to be strong, and overcome every little things, just like Ash, who fought all the way to the Pokemon League.
Thankfully 7 of them came later in the evening to do exercise with me. I enjoy the time spent. Exercise makes me feel like a 阳光男孩, so charming! I sure make myself drools. Went to Al Azhar for dinner after which. Talking about Azhar, I was almost laughing every moment seeing him in this Malay telemovie on Suria this afternoon.
Now is holiday. Please ask me out and keep me occupied. I don't want to be a lonely someone. I am weakling. Vivienne, have you asked MOS and Zouk to get ready for me to come? Had they stocked up their rams?
I like SUN! She makes me laugh.
I love 周慧敏! She is one of the most beautiful woman that ever exist. Every time I see her, my heart just faint. If my future partner is like Vivian Chow, I am so going to tell her that she is so beautiful every single day. And pardon me? She is 40 years old already? Who cares?
You know what, maybe I'll go temple tomorrow.
