I felt especially emotional seeing Huang Yi Liang on this show recently. However I do not sympathise with him and although I must say his stories made sense to a certain extend. I just feel sad (I always do!) for his ex-wife, daughter and the outcome of their marriage. His current marriage seem to be quite questionable but however I am not interested at all.
That added up to my negative feelings about marriage. Of most people I spoke to, they don't come from a happy and united family. Their parents are staying together for the sick of their children or for the sick of not breaking the rules of their traditions. Else they come from single parent family. A survey done for my school assignment I was alarmed by the increasing figures of the divorced rates in Singapore, year by year.
I do not believe in marraige. I think I am going to be a bacherlor, staying at a studio apartment in future, inviting all my beloved friends to my home occasionally to accompany me and my lonely life. I don't believe all my friends will be married with happy family and have no time for me in future. Most will divorce, while many others are homophobic and there ought to be a fair percentage of singles out there- Yes, many people want to be single now and forever!
I think it will be the end of the world if I ever get attached, because I will always do silly things and get hurt. Why am I so sure? Because I always allow myself to get hurt even during friendships. Just recently a lot of people have been telling me not to give in too much. I am trying to change, but I feel insecure doing so. You know, it is important to be yourself, but it is hard being yourself. There are many people who cannot do that.
