You see, most people struggle with it, and for me, the emotional struggle had been really hitting on me time and again. Being a neurotic person I am, I feel really helpless and weak at most time. People who don't understand me may think that it is my excuses for being in such a state, but truly how many of you know the uncontrollable emotional reaction I experienced throughout this whole experience.
How does this sound to you? "I take a lot of courage for every little things I do, whereas people can easily do them in a blink of an eye."
I am not trying to be negative about the whole experience actually. Seriously, like from deep inside my heart, I am thankful for whatever given to me and on top of that, I really appreciate the kindness of everyone I've met. They are all really nice people and they take good care of me. I think Marvin and friends were really sweet to have spent my last day of civilian life roaming around Singapore and getting things done. And to all my friends out there, I am really upset because I feel somehow or rather we will be driven apart from each other because of my job. Each day, I pray that we will still be as good as ever even after many years later.
